J’y suis, J’y reste!

They say, "You don't call... like ever!!", "Why do you always have to be in yourself!" 
I'm not saying that I rest in denial, I too agree...
Well... I have my own reasons.... Now some of them might sound not much intriguing, some might even sound weird.. But that's the way it works.

1. I love to socialise, but only with right people, in the right place, at the right time. I'm a bit of discerning in that way.

2. Spending time reading in peace and quiet is just much better than trying to shout over the music.

3. Being alone means I can move at my own pace. I can get up when I want, do what I want WHEN I want, and basically don’t have to cater to anyone else. It’s all about ME.

4. This especially applies when I am travelling alone. There is truly nothing else in the world like exploring, and maybe even getting lost in a city or the wild all by myself.

5.  I enjoy the time spent in silence with a mug of coffee sitting beside a window more than anything. My thought processes really go very long on those roads.

6. Moreover, if you became my friend, you literally signed up for this kind of stuff!

Meanwhile, I came about this quote by Nicholas Sparks... Looks like pretty much applicable to my aspects of LIFE ― “We sit silently and watch the world around us. This has taken a lifetime to learn. It seems only the old are able to sit next to one another and not say anything and still feel content. The young, brash and impatient, must always break the silence. It is a waste, for silence is pure. Silence is holy. It draws people together because only those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking. This is a great paradox.”

Now it's not (as some people say) that "I'm insensitive" or "I don't care".... Its just that its the way I am... Might be wrong, but it is...
I too miss people... the ones I have spent time during my higher studies in Jaipur... Especially guys like you - (Aliases) Bachii, Dhakkan, Chutki, Piddi n Maccharr... I do care! It's just that I don't verbally communicate all that stuff.. or even through my actions... Always remember that you all build up one of the most important parts of my life... and you will remain there till eternity... :)

Cos It's about time!!

"There comes a time in your life when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Failing down is a part of life, getting back up is living...."

I have been working so hard that I even used to loose track of time...
I have been with people who can literally suck out the life of a person..
I have been taking some really tough decisions in my life...
I have been sticking on to the assurances of a single persons at times for my fate...
I have been in situations where one has only the option to raise the 'Middle finger' to the person in front regardless of who he is...
Been there... Done that..!

and I keep telling myself NEVER EVER.. EVER AGAIN!!

But these days, it seems like no matter which corner I turn to, I'm being faced with some form of trouble or negativity. I always tell people to look at the bright side, but somewhere along the way, all this darkness gets to me and I feel disheartened.

I've been thinking about the future for a while now.... I thought I had a PLAN, and it's what I'd have been working upon now... But sometimes the cards in the game turn opposite. All that I'm still certain about is that nothing is certain!

Sometimes I miss the way things had been earlier, but in the end, it's always the hope of betterment that wins... In any case I also didn't want life to be meaninglessly simple... ;)

An extract of the book never published

Meanwhile... Flipping through the pages of his diary, I found this one lying aloof...

Feb 16, 2015
"And then... When weeks felt like decades... A single glimpse just poured happiness into a lifeless soul.... Yes, I saw her that day... A moment that I wished if could pause for even a thousand years... And I could literally do anything to have that moment once again...
I know she wouldn't even care if I existed or not, but for that smile, even a life is less.... N every time I try to forget her, that single glimpse of smile just makes it more worse for me... A feeling of being fallen in love again and again... Whatever people might say or think, I would still love her forever n ever.... <3"